In May 2017, I made a dramatic exit from this blog to embark on newer pursuits. Since then, I have collaborated on 10 podcast episodes, and I have grown fond of Instagram. I have not done much else. Meanwhile, I had continued to collect stories about my experiences as a birdwatcher. Just like I used to. Only this time, they had no place to call a home. Angry about being orphaned, they declared mutiny on me. We fought dirty for months. Even the lawyers cried themselves to sleep. But, the bloodbath yielded neither wounds nor winners.
It took me a while to realize that we were on the same team. If I did not inject words into their veins, after I was gone – it would be as though they did not happen at all. A week ago, I concluded that a sheepish comeback to the blog is less embarrassing than a stress-related departure from sanity.
I am unsure how many of my readers still haunt these parts. I have missed you, and I am eager to rekindle the uncommon love we once shared. If you are new to these parts…thank you for showing up. You may not know it yet, but we are practically in a relationship.
To recap, I went through a spinal cord surgery last year due to which I had to drastically cut down on bird-watching. So, I have only been taking short road trips to the local sanctuary. It has been a long and frustrating wait. Thankfully, I managed to spend quality time with the residential birds. From Owlets and Barbets to Treepies and Orioles, they have been keeping me afloat.
I am thankful for their presence because without them I may explode into a million angry pieces of flesh, bone, and muscle.
I have also been stalking my favorite birdwatchers- Aravind Amirtharaj, Aseem Kothiala, Christine Connerly, Mali Halls, Tristan Spurway, Samantha Carlson, and Nick Upton. Their photographs of birds are stained glass windows to landscapes I may never explore. After all, the world is so big. I just want to be everywhere. But most times, I find myself going nowhere fast. So, I end up fighting to be anywhere but here.
About 5 months ago, I moved as far as I could from the city. We had been seeing only the worst in each other for close to a decade. The suburbs have been treating me well thus far. Its traffic-free zones, the wise old trees, the giant swarms of butterflies, and the stupidly-happy faces of stray dogs as they balance work, play and being roadkill.
The quality of my neighbors has significantly improved too. Inside the apartment complex reside many families of Common Babblers, Purple Sunbirds, Sparrowhawks, and White-Throated Kingfishers. My balcony oversees a lake that houses Black Winged Stilts, Greenshanks, and Sandpipers. One time, a perky Golden Plover even showed up.
I share my quiet time with them. I meditate on the stillness of clouds; they look for prey in the waters. The wind gasps through the half-open French windows in the large filing cabinets that we call our homes. The tense chattering of children, in the nearby park, starts as abruptly as it stops. We giggle as the clouds make balloon animals out of their own supple hips.
When dusk arrives, the sky drips peach juice. Poems wriggle free off sunken lips and divebomb – with reckless abandon – into the lake. Darkness falls, and the moon appears – with scars, soaked in wet dreams and molten cheese, sewn into the ghostly hems of its nightgown.
A few miles away from the lake lies the coastline of the Bay of Bengal. She is mighty and wondrously monstrous. Afternoons are when I am most in awe of her. Bathed in the heat of the sun, she writhes – burping frothy waves, with every gulp of the cool breeze.
Some nights, I open the bedroom window to look for ships along her horizon. I re-imagine the lives of the people onboard. The events that had led them to the waters that day. Then, I secretly wish for Godzilla to show up and go berserk. Or for a major drug deal to go wrong because Godzilla showed up, and it will not stop sorting all the cocaine.
As relatively peaceful as my days are, these days, I remind myself of how quickly everything can change. We have all been on this roller-coaster ride before. If there are peaks, there will be valleys. There will also be deep craters, strewn with black mambas strapped to WWII landmines. And clifftops so high that we may finally know how it feels like to be a bird, for a few seconds, if we ever took a leap of faith.
It is why I have big plans for the winter of 2018. No, I do not intend to jump off a cliff. I want to travel across south India. I have been resting my body so that I can push myself – physically and emotionally – when the migratory birds return in November. I yearn to write about my encounters with them. The oohs. The ahhs. The oh-my-god-what-is-wrong-with-yous.
All the birds I have spotted. The mammals, the reptiles, the insects, and the trivial tribulations of an adorable yet wretched planet.
Remember, Verseherder is just another WordPress blog. I am one among a thousand writers, trying to build a symbiotic relationship with you, the reader, by sharing personal experiences and half-baked perspectives. Hopefully, you find them to be entertaining and mindful. I can always look for a psychic hypnotist to teach me how to manipulate you into liking me. But it seems a tad unnecessary at this point in our relationship.
And if I ever leave this blog again, we can just blame it on Godzilla’s cocaine problem.
Until then… here we go again.
Photographs: Chennai
I was just thinking about you yesterday Christy. Good to see you back. Enjoy your trip across South India. I sure miss that region sometimes.
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Awww ain’t that some timing. Tis’ lovely to have you back here.
And south India isn’t going anywhere. Visit when the time is right!
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But neither am I.
Don’t let anyone tell you to put off travel until you’re older Christy. Ignoring the family members telling me that 35 years ago was the best call I ever made.
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Ha. Fighting words, my friend. Thank you. I needed that!
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Look, ma! Christy is back!
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Call the village elders and sharpen the pitchforks hehehe!
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A triumphant return full of your usual (how do you do it?) phrasing and musing on life. Awfully glad to see you back.
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Thank you very much, Susanne. It’s been too long, and I am excited about being back!
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Welcome back. Nature in general, and birds in particular are therapeutic on so many levels. I am glad you are benefiting from them.
Best wishes,
Tanja
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Aren’t they, Tanja! Just their birdsongs alone fill me with love, and I hope I can share the music with you.
Thank you!
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Welcome back.
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Danke LG! Hope you’ve been rummaging well in your parts.
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Ah, look who’s back! I had almost forgotten how harmoniously you write. Welcome back, C!
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D’aww thanks mate. Glad to be back. I saw your update a few weeks too. Loved it!
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Ahhh, good to read your poetic prose again!
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Thank you, Jaya!
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Welcome back my dear friend!
I have often thought of you in your absence, usually accompanied by an image of you standing with head down, forefingers of your right hand touching or pinching your lower lip as if in deep thought, while right-angled sun rays pierce the canopy of the very large broad-leafed tree you are standing beneath creating a quilt-work of moving colors and shapes and shadows that are splashed across the stone paved walkway you stand upon. An interesting image spontaneously conjured up from the depths of my perception, I wonder if it has any significance? If I were asked to name the image I just described, I would have to call it; “Sorting It Out”. But wait; Is that an echo I hear?
Sincerely, welcome back to the fold my intrepid friend.
When last we spoke I mentioned an expected “triumphant return,” yet you have referred to it as a “sheepish return”. I’ll hear none of that my friend. There is never any need to feel any shame or embarrassment when you are moving forward on your path to the truth. Shame is reserved only for those who stand still or move backwards, and they cannot escape the consequences of their failures. Cling tightly to the truth in all things my friend, it will lead you to many beautiful and horrific experiences, and it will protect you in times of real danger. “Sheepish”? I can hardly believe you uttered the word! But wait; Is that burning rubber I smell?
Ya see, a guy like me can walk up to that smoldering heap of a wreck you left parked outside and see the beauty in it. I know the smell of burning rubber and the sizzling sounds of the last drops of life-giving fluids dripping on a red hot exhaust pipe. I find great satisfaction in knowing what the wreckage of a well used vehicle really means, and I admire the traveler who drove it to complete exhaustion. As long as you are moving forward, you are inevitably moving closer to the truth, that’s all that really matters. At least at this point. And oh by the way, there is an expiration date attached to this journey of a thousand wrecked vehicles. Many a fool has left this world with their last words being; “If only I had more time”. Use yours wisely.
Sometimes, your journey may lead back to a place you have been before, as if you have taken a detour, and it feels good to be back in a place you are familiar with, but every detour has value, as long as you keep moving forward.
Welcome back my friend, the keys to your next vehicle are in your own pocket, keep one eye on the destination and one eye on the clock, and drive it like ya stole it. Oh and, wear comfortable shoes.
Doc’
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Gosh, how / why on earth did this comment go to Spam!
Such a beautiful read, dear friend. I feel humbled by the length and breadth of your welcome. I say it, shamelessly – this is what I had missed the most about being here. A kindred connection I would have never had the good fortune of nurturing otherwise.
I munched way through your words about 4-5 times, and each time I found something lovelier to thank you for. The highway wreckage analogy was very relatable because I would like to think of Verseherder as a happy accident. And I am thrilled to be back here and for this rendezvous (I will flog someone in WordPress for spamming one of my favorite people).
Just so you know, your advice on wearing padded shoes a year ago saved me from quite a lot of physical stress. But if I thank you again, I assume you feel an irresistible urge to throw something at me
(Waves pirate flag despite the burning rubber)
Land ahoy, matey. Bring your running shoes. Full speed ahead!
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Back to silently lurking then. 🙂
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Hahahaha why silently. Top of your lungs, I say!
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Nice to see you back, Christy. I hope the back surgery gave you some relief! Glad to read you are still birding therapeutically. So am I. ~ Shannon
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It did plenty good, Shannon! Back on my feet now. Of course, you are still birding. The birds would miss you too much otherwise. I can’t wait to read all that I have missed in your blog.
Also, I’ve lost access to the old email ID. Please do send a “hello” to verseherder@gmail.com!
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This is the first post I read but welcome back! Intriguing enough that I will come back for more
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I’m glad to hear that! Hope you enjoy your stay here. Some happy accidents are just meant to be hehe.
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